Dear Boyfriend/Best friend/my soulmate,
I think I really did fall in love with you at first touch, I know you didn’t feel the same, but I felt it. You just are the most perfect balance that a human being could have. You make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have the privilege to have even met you.
Our first months were rocky, yes, they were a few very hard months but I honestly wouldn’t change any part of our journey together, honestly. Yes, the week we spent apart was though however something told me it wasn’t over. That week made such a big difference.
I am sorry, I am truly sorry I did not give you time. I am sorry. I hate myself for doing that to you.
I am sorry I get jealous easily, I’m sorry you lost some friends cause of my jealousy. I know that must have felt like shit.
I feel like you deserve better, and its all I ever want to give you, I swear, I will do anything it takes to become the perfect girlfriend. To be the one who is always there when you need me, To be everything you look for in a girl, To be perfect just like you.
Our first time in Rome was something I will never forget. I feel like I got to know you better, I felt safe and loved, a feeling no one was able to show me. If I could choose to lose my virginity to someone I wish, I truly wish it was to you, someone I love, someone I trust and someone who is the total opposite of the monster who stole it from me.
It took a while to open up, It was hard, and it did kind of triggered me yeah, It’s not your fault please know that, but i have been thinking a lot about what we said, But I know that what i said within the hotel room walls are safe with you. Thank you, for taking care of me. Thank you for being there, always.
I need to thank you for turning all my days from horrible to beautiful days full of laughter and love, for making me feel alive when i wake up feeling dead and numb, for taking my broken soul and mending it bit by bit. Thank you for crossing oceans for me just to see a smile on my face.
If anything ever happens to me and you come across this post,
I never loved anyone as much as I love you,
I will do anything and everything for you.
I want you to know that you’re the most caring and loving person,
You’re my favorite person,
My demel buddy,
My other half,
My soul mate,
The love of my life,
You are my whole world and my everything.
You are the reason I keep strong.
You are the reason I keep trying.
I hope you know I’ll always love you,
To mars and back and to mars again,
Always and forever.
I love you,
please don’t forget me.